Just one more

Can you tell who didn't really like the mud?? Their too cute!!!

So much fun!!

The kids and I went camping for the first time this past weekend. It was a blast. It rained all day friday and all night but we definitly made the best of it. I decided to just let loose and let the kids be kids...As u can see in my pictures below, we did just that!! Taylor's birthday was Friday and Ben's was Monday's so we also celebrated their b-days. This is a trip I plan on taking again. We were able to forget about everything that's been going on and just be us...

Our Camping trip...

Best Friends...Ben, Zander, Hunter, and Michael...

Playin in the mud...

Michael and Hunter at a home game...

Michael in the mud...

Zander in the mud...

Hunter and Zander

Hunter and Ben

Lee Lee and Ben

Lee Lee

The boys playing in the mud...with their cars...

Ben, Hunter, Michael, and Zander...

Happy Birthday Tay Tay

Look how Big my girl is...

Happy Birthday Baby!! I love you...

In all honesty...

I did not post pictures of our time with Mike's parents when we were in NY on my blog because of everything that has been going on with Mike and I. It was also made clear to me by Mike that this is his family, however just because we are seperated doesn't mean that they are not our family. They will always be the kids grandparents and Aunts and Uncles and hopefull my friends also. I am sorry for not posting these sooner. The kids and I did have so much fun with them and hope that we can see them again soon!! I hope that you are not mad. We miss you tons!!!!! Love, US...

Our time with Grandma and Grandpa...

Grandma and Grandpa with three of their grandchildren...

Thanks for having us...we had so much fun and we look foward to seeing you again!!!!

Aunt Jen and Coral...Thanks Aunt Jen and Uncle Tom for having us in your home...

Beautiful Coral...We miss you SOOOOOOOO much!!

Grandma Herrick and Taylor

Grandma and Lee Lee

Grandma and Bubba

Grandpa and Taylor

Grandma and Grandpa Herrick...We had so much fun with you!!!!!!

Uncle Jason and Uncle Josh

Michael still talks about Uncle Jason's Bike...Just loved it...

Uncle Josh

Coral is getting so big.

The kids had so much fun playing with their cousin!!

Michael had so much fun getting Uncle Tom wet...

Summer fun...

On the path to happiness...

So I have been to see a lawyer and I am now calling Mike my EX...That still sounds so wierd to say. He has officially moved in with his girlfriend and I have accepted that we are leading seperate lives. It kinda feels GOOD, in a wierd way. I have this whole bunch of friends who have been so good and so supportive and I can't say thank you enough for everything. Then there's my parents... No words can express how thankful I am for everything that they have done. Family sure does stick behind you in times of need. I have been much happier the last few weeks. I have definitly found peace through all this.

So on to other things...Today I took the Lee Lee to Buffalo Beals on a field trip and we had such a good time. We were able to feed the animals and play on the jumpy thing and the play ground. We were there with all our friends. Walker came with us since his mommy and daddy couldn't go, and then Zander got to come home and play with us. I fed the kids lunch and since everyone was tired from our big morning we put in a movie and everyone is relaxing. Football was cancelled tonight for PTO at the school. Soon I will take Walker and Zander home and get Taylor and Michael.

Michael what a big boy he's becoming. Since starting school he has learned so much. His complete alphabet, he's learning to read and he can recognize different words now. He is getting homework and this makes him so excited since Taylor always has homework.

Well anyways today has been a really good day so far and I hope the rest goes just as well..Till next time...

All by myself....

Ok...sitting at home ALL BY MESELF...for the first time in 10 years...it's lonely...but relaxing...sad...but relaxing...I can't stop thinking about the kids...who are with their father for the first night since our seperation. I have already gotten one phone call that they might not make it through the night. They already want to come home. This is a good thing since I want them home in their OWN beds...however they need time to spend with their daddy too?!?!?! Confusion swarms my head. I know I will not be able to sleep tonight because their not here. I just want to put in a good chick flick and watch it except for some reason the STUPID TV wont work...What the heck...Oh well...i guess that's my sign I should just go to bed!!! I guess this is the hand I was delt and I should figure out what to do with it.who knows.....

I...

I copied and pasted it from Moriah's blog, I thought is is interesting...

I am: A hopeless romantic!

I think: Everyone deserves to be happy!

I know: What I believe in.

I have: The best family

I wish: For love, happiness, and everything I deserve...

I hate: Being lied to...taking out the trash, and rude people

I miss: Strong friendships

I fear: Failure, and being alone

I feel: Scared but optimistic...

I hear: Everything my kids say even when they think I am not listening

I smell: The roses even if there not there...

I crave: passion, balance, understanding

I wonder: why things happen the way they do and what the purpose of it is?

I regret: nothing. I am who I am because of every path I've ever walked on.

I love: My children more that anything in the world. There is nothing greater...

I ache: When other people are sad

I am not: The strongest person, but I am workin on it day by day

I believe: In love at first sight...

I dance: When I am with friends

I sing: All the time...I don't have the best voice but I love to sing...I am not allowed to sing when Taylor's friends are with us...she says it's not cool!

I cry: All the time by myself...I always feel so much better after a good cry...

I don't always: feel like being social, answer the phone when it rings...

I fight: for my children when I feel they need it

I write: to get my feeling out then throw the paper away...

I win: at loving my kids unconditionally

I lose: my patience quick these days...but I am working hard at that :)

I never: like to see anyone unhappy...

I always: have been the person my friends go to...

I confuse: myself when having to make major decisions

I listen: to people, I am a very good listener

I am scared: Of dying, never finding love

I need: Someone who likes/loves me for ME, not what I look like...Someone who knows me because they cared enough to pay attention

I am happy about: Starting this new chapter in my life!!!

10 Days with Grandpa and Nana

Silly Aunt Emily

We were in down town Rochester and the kids thought the police officer on the horse was cool.

Bubba...he really does sleep...sometimes

Just exhausted...

Jenna, Taylor, Alyssa, Ally, and Michael

all the kids with Danielle

This ride was so high and the kids just LOVED IT...

Our day at Seabrease

Our new friend Jenna

And cute little Ally

Alyssa and Ally